I like watching movies because it often feels good to see someone else's projections rather than always enduring the incessant chatter of my own mind as it attempts to gather its many thoughts into some kind of coherent story about living. I honestly don't 'think' it is very capable of the task it has assumed for itself. Sometimes I can be seduced by the notion that somebody else is telling a better story than mine. But if I step back from what I seem to be saying, I see and laugh (feel) how that too is a trick that gets embedded into 'my' story. WHO judges the 'betterness' anyway? The 'better' is simply a way of convincing myself I am not sufficient enough ...yet. Time is a convenient way to postpone the inevitable awakening to Wholeness. Also note how the word 'better' embodies the idea of a gambler...always hoping the next bet is a winner! What a damned precarious way to live!
Einstein's famous quote has echoed many times across the world: God does not play dice with the Universe.
But here we are appearing as if it is one big casino full of winners and losers. Luck and fate are playing you in this game. The random generator has entrapped your soul.
I don't find this game very reassuring, so my task is to discern just WHAT it is I do want to PLAY.
Certainly there are more creative choices than the dualistic WIN or LOSE mentality we adopted in our orientation to this world. Mentalism functions on simple assumptions...the light is on or off...and that works brilliantly for making machines and computers...stuff...things. But so damned inadequate to answer WHY or even WHO I AM. Feelings...emotions...unruly states of consciousness that will not be made black or white by the arrogant mentalist.
In chess, (a black and white sort of game by the way) a pawn gets promoted if it advances to the other end of the board; but even though the identity changed to a more powerful player, it is still stuck in the same game.
Sometimes a player can see defeat without having to play it out...reaches up and topples his king to admit defeat.
They say you are a genius if you win a lot. I say you are a genius if you create a different game. I rather dislike the idea of losers cluttering up my world. I'd rather see joyful people who like Being Here, unafraid, marveling at how beautiful Life is because they know the Causal Intent of IT's Lighted play.
It really IS this. But we only notice IT when somebody Really knows and plays accordingly. I intend to be what 'I' was conceived to be, nothing more or less than that. Its the easiest thing I can think of.
Only an insane person would insist that misery, conflict, and struggle are essential to life. They are certainly free to maintain that delusion as they have plenty of people to play along with them. I certainly did for awhile...but it got to be so dreadfully BORING! I wanted out. So what if it seems to take a long time to dig through the walls with my little spoon? (as in Shawshanke Redemption). I know my place is Freedom. I committed no crime to be here. I am not the sinner so many want to believe they are. I'm just an explorer that took a closer look at a game that swept me in..vortex-like...like some black hole or something of the sort. Honestly, I'm innocent. Why won't anybody believe me...it's hilarious to expect that from fearful ones...angry ones. Only the loving can truly comprehend my message.
I shall emerge from this chaotic turbulent force-event all clean and shiny. And the inevitability of it is worth laughing for. I'll see you 'there' more fully than the occasional here, in these brief moments of clarity when I am not afflicted by consensual delusions. There is far more 'space' than there are black holes anyway. Maybe we inhabit a Universal carnival. The rides are free...but the thrills are sometimes more than we expect. When I get off this one called Watch the Insane People Trying to Destroy their Planet, I will have a whopper of a story to tell my fellow soul travelers for certain!
Bliss might get boring if it weren't for these occasional excursions.
Enjoy what you can. Scream if you must. Get mad. Imagine how it could have been done differently. Whatever you like, or don't. Doesn't matter. The Vortex will spin until the visitors quit coming. Everything is going as it always has, and I'd rather like it than not.